The day after.....

So the morning after the night before, or more accurately the night after the morning before? I have now survived 88 hours on less than 2 hours sleep! Surely I must sleep tonight? I'm hoping so! And I did fall asleep on the sofa just now, even if it was only for 10 minutes? But that must be a good omen?

My obsession with my rapid weight gain continues!! As does my record of gaining more ounces than I've had minutes of sleep! Although I only gained 2 pounds today, making it 8 in three days, how does that happen? My friend has now ordered me to step away from the Wii Fit and stop obsessing! What will be will be, and I can worry about it when I'm better? I'm hoping that a good proportion of it is water retention and I won't have to live on lettuce for too long?

I strangely feel a little more positive today, bizarre considering my sleep deprivation. I suspect part of the reason is that now the steroids are done I'm not worrying about what might happen, just dealing with the consequences day by day! I know it will get worse before it gets better, but I'm dealing with it? I'm taking all the precautions I can to deal with some of the stuff I know will happen, and just riding it out!

I just hope the post steroid crash doesn't undo all my positivity again! Not sure I want to go back to that place? I had a brief exchange with a friend who now lives in Canada earlier, she told me I'm one tough cookie, of course I'll get through it! Lol If only she'd seen me the last few weeks she might feel different? But then she did see me get through it all when I was first diagnosed? Maybe she's wiser than I think? So that will be my mantra, I'm going to be that tough cookie again!

In other news I haven't really managed much at all today. I wrapped the teens birthday pressies ready for tomorrow and spent most of the day trying not to eat. That itself was exhausting and took tremendous effort I can tell you! But was fairly successful on the whole. Managed not to eat the cat, despite him being very still for long periods, and still on the same packet of biscuits that I opened yesterday! There's still some left too! The diet police will be proud if they're watching!

Now to try and sleep! Wish me luck......

C xx