Well finally the last day is out of the way!
I'd love to say it went smoothly, but this is me. It all seemed to be going so well, the cannula had stayed in for the three days and appeared to flush well when I arrived. The infusion though had other ideas. It dripped a bit then decided to give up the ghost, it was really sore and my hand was getting puffy, the conclusion was reached that it wasn't patent and would need changing. And so began the task of finding another vein that would play ball. It wasn't so bad I guess, just took 4 goes and she was in. Even this vein wasn't the most co-operative, would drip haphazardly and stopped on a whim. In the end she had to leave it fully open, against her better judgement, to get it to go through at all. But it did in the end and I was finally on the way home.
Mum was on chauffeuring duties today, and stopped at the shop for me to grab a sandwich on the way home. I almost had to be restrained to stop me buying the entire biscuit section, the munchies have well and truly kicked in today. I had managed to be quite good yesterday and ate relatively small amounts really. That hasn't stopped me putting on another 3 pounds in 24 hours, that makes 6 pounds in 48 hours. Maybe I should hang onto the fat clothes after all? I'll be on two lettuce leaves a day for the next three months when this is over, just to get back to where I'd started. I have a new bloody dress to get into for a party don't you know!
I've now had the sum total of about an hours sleep in about 60 hours, and they were in the form of three 20 minute or so cat naps. I'd better manage a bit of sleep tonight or tomorrow isn't going to be pretty. To be honest its not very pretty now to be fair. Having said that I'm pretty calm really for someone who feels like a bear with a sore head.
And then there's the 6 pounds I've gained in 48 hours........ I've actually gained more ounces than I've had minutes sleep! I am totally aware that I'm obsessing a tad, I do apologise! But so would you if you were increasing in size at such a rate!
Some of the other less pleasant effects are starting to kick in now too. I can feel some swelling starting already, my eyes are starting to feel tighter and my rings definitely are. I'm also starting to get dizzy spells and my chest is very definitely tighter. My taste buds are now completely destroyed, and everything just tastes the same.......dreadful!
I'm still waiting for the euphoria. Although I may just take the fact that I'm on day three with no sleep and I haven't killed anyone yet as a win. I did say yet though, I was on my best behaviour at the hospital and haven't been exposed to any humans since arriving home. They have just come home though, so all bets could be off?
On the up side this really has made me see what lovely friends I have. I've had so many messages wishing me luck, checking up on me and generally offering to do anything I need, no matter how big or small. Also offers to take me out and cheer me up again once I'm on the mend. It's made me realise how lucky I am to have so many wonderful people in my life. Its also brought it home who is there for me and who really doesn't give a flying one, regardless of the times I've been there for them over the years. That's a bitter pill to swallow!
C xx
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