Back to school

I've been thinking for a while about maybe doing some sort of studying again.  It will be an uphill struggle, not having done any serious academic work for over 20 years.  Don't get me wrong I've done bits and pieces related to my job.  NVQ3, NVQ assessors award, Moving and Handling trainer, and other bits and pieces that have required me writing and studying various things.  But none of them really serious hard stuff.

As you may have read in other bits of my blog I'm at a bit of a crossroads.  Maybe its my age.  Perhaps its my body clock ticking?  Telling me that if I'm going to do something I'd better do something about it soon?  I was talking to a good friend a couple of weeks ago, and she's very much in the same place as me.  Its not that I don't enjoy my job, I do!  I also work with a fab bunch of people, and I wouldn't change that for the world.  But I'm bored!  There I've said it!  I miss the thrill of the stuff I used to do!

I'm frustrated too!  The ongoing political and financial situation have changed the job.  Changes in the powers that be have changed the job.  Once upon a time we could see a problem, or identify a need, and find a solution.  Don't get me wrong we had to be able to stack up the financial equation, and everything else.  But if we could argue the case and had enough evidence to back up what we were saying, and it made financial sense we did it!  Now we come up with a solution, it goes up the chain of command, lands on a desk and stays there.  Nothing ever seems to move forward.  Then we're told its not what they want, or that there are aspects about it that aren't right, great tell us what you want....... hmmmmm there in lies the problem, they don't know.  No steer, no direction, just no!

So is it time for a change?  If so what?  The things I'd really like to do I can't, because of my bloody MS!  I want to be a nurse, I should have done it years ago when I had the chance!  I want to be an A&E or ITU nurse!  Moving on.......  My friend incidentally wants a complete change, she wants to run a coffee shop.  Maybe I could bake cakes for her?  This was all brought sharply into focus the other day when the teen asked, out of the blue, if I could choose any job what would my perfect job be.

So what can I do to ease the boredom?  The teen is thinking about starting to do St John.  I used to really enjoy that!  So I've started thinking again, maybe that might capture my interest a little, give me something to challenge me a little?  The problem is my bloody MS, will that get in the way again?  Maybe I'll look into it?

Which brings me to the last option, a couple of nights ago I had a flash of inspiration - study?  I decided to Google a few things, started off thinking maybe I could go and do something at night school, but nothing really grabbed me?  Ended up on the Open University website.  Do I really have the commitment to do a degree at my age?  Do I have the time?  Can I commit to 6 years of study, and £15K of debt in student loan?  Am I up to it?  The final question then is what to study?  What was the first thing I clicked on when the options came up....... Science!

Lots to think about there I think.........

C xx