Things really do happen for a reason!

As you may have read in previous posts, and as anyone who knows me will know, I'm a great believer in Fate, and that things happen for a reason.  The last few months have been particularly difficult for me, and I've been struggling to see what the reason is.  Emotionally I'm not out of the woods yet, I'm still a bit fragile, but I'm heading in the right direction, things are definitely on the up! 

I'm even starting to see what I think may be the reason I have been going through all this.  When I was at my lowest I saw a job advertised at Birmingham Children's hospital that I fancied, and applied for it.  Realistically I knew I wouldn't get shortlisted as I didn't have the right background for the job.  I'm also glad I didn't, as I really didn't fancy driving all that way every day.  What that did do is put me in a different frame of mind with regards to looking at jobs, it also had me looking on the NHS jobs website.  So I started putting in a few applications.  With each application my form got a bit better, I was honing my technique.  All in all I put in another 4 applications. 

Out of these 4 jobs, I was shortlisted for interviews for 3.  The first interview was also the highest grade post, and low and behold I got the job.  I have had very few interviews in my life, and have a bizarre record of so far being offered every job I have been interviewed for, my record continues!  As this is the best paid one, and means I will have continuous service and can keep my pension the same etc I have decided not to go for the other interviews, no point putting myself through that! 

But forget all that....... I GOT THE JOB!!  It's still sinking in, I keep expecting to wake up.  If nothing else that's quite an ego boost, I beat 5 other people to the finish line.

Its all provisional at the moment, and I have to wait for the recruitment process to be done.  Then will come the hardest part of all.  Leaving my current job.  On the whole I enjoy my job, and most importantly I love the people, but if I stay it will be for the wrong reasons, for the people not the job.  I told a few of my closest friends today, and cried buckets.  This is only going to get worse over the next few weeks! The carpets will be soggy by the time my last day arrives.  But I know its the best thing for me.

This is clearly the reason for it all.  This is the path that Fate was preparing.  I'm even more convinced of that than ever after my future manager told me that they had advertised the post before and interviewed but they didn't get anyone good enough to appoint.  So maybe fate was saving the job for me for when the time was right?  One thing I do know is that if all of these dreadful things hadn't happened over the last few months I would never have even looked for a new job, let alone gone as far as applying and going for an interview.  I'd have been much too scared!  But what has been happening has been so scary it almost made this look like a piece of cake.  It made me realise I could feel the fear and do it anyway!  So maybe things do happen for a reason after all?

Its a huge step, totally out of my comfort zone, into a completely new area that I know very little about.  It's really really scary stuff!  But you know what, I think I may just be up to the challenge!  The next few months will be incredibly hard, but hopefully it will all be worth it.  Its going to be exciting, hard, and challenging, I can't wait. 

However hard it's been, today is the first day of the rest of my life!

C x