Living for today

I've been following Alice's Bucket List.  A truly inspirational story about a young girl with terminal cancer, and her bucket list.  It got me to thinking about my own bucket list.

When you have a progressive type of illness it does make you consider your mortality a little more.  Its not so much about dying, as MS isn't a terminal illness, its more about knowing that you will deteriorate, you just never know how quickly, how badly, or when it will happen.  The only thing you do know is that it will happen one day.  I know you are probably thinking that anyone could go out and get run over by that metaphorical bus, and thats very true, they could, but its unlikely.  For us MSer's, and other chronic condition battlers, we know the bus is definitely going to get us one day, we just don't know which day. 

That sounds like a negative thought, but actually for me its been quite a positive one.  Its made me think more about living for today, and not putting stuff off till tomorrow.  Its taught me to do the fun stuff now while I can, to make the most of life, and to make the memories today, that will keep me going when that day the bus hits finally arrives.  Its taught me to worry less about the rainy day, and to make the most of the sun while it shines.  There may even be a lesson there for us all.  I've spoken to a couple of friends about it, and its certainly given them a different view on life too.  Who'd have thought MS could be a good thing?

The rainy day may never arrive for me, the bus definitely will, and I sure as hell plan on having plenty of memories to look back on and smile when tomorrow finally comes.